危生素——雷Lei个人画展海报
六九艺术网讯,由像素艺术空间、四川风标文化艺术有限公司主办,策展人唐飚与诗人二梅花联合策划推出的危生素——雷Lei个人画展将于6月20日(本周五)晚21:30在成都像素艺术空间开幕,展览将持续到7月20日结束。
展览开幕式主题乐均由来自德国的DJ马丁先生专门为雷的绘画创作。
让我们一起来享受极具个人风格的绘画和音乐的盛宴!
危生素
[文|二梅花]
因孤独而起----生机!开花、结果、浑圆多汁,但,始终被阴影透视,那黑暗是地心的高温在画面的显现:迷幻、热烈,是内心深处广大的隐喻!
从前,有个女的,她叫雷。这名字不象女人的名字,这个名字对女人来说有些鲁莽,有些响亮,有些不管不顾,但这个名字却是她真正想要的名字,她想要,雨,下在田里,谷物、瓜果、蔬菜,还有花鸟鱼虫,有了多多多多的雨水,就疯长起来,丰盛起来。
在下雨之前,应该有雷,必须有雷,不得不有雷,雨才会下得痛快,下得透彻。雷,从远远的冰冻的冬天滚过来,先是两头紧抱着的大象,越滚越大,越滚越响,越滚越近,最后,一百万头大象抱在一起,一起叫唤,啊,啊,啊,轰轰轰,它们滚到了春天,在我们的头顶炸开,吓人一大跳。
有一天,雷说,她还是会为了所爱的绘画,放下一切所有,把我吓了一跳,就象我说想成为一个大诗人,也吓了她一跳。我们相互被对方内心的雷声雷到了,我们这才算真正的认识了对方。
在这里,我不想谈雷的画,你们有你们自己的眼睛和独特的心灵,我相信,如果你们专心的看,不出一分钟,你们就会得出一个直接的答案:喜欢?还是不喜欢?所以,我恳求你们用心看。
在这里,我想说说雷为什么开始画画,因为,她的心里住着一只大熊猫。
这只熊猫,患有肥胖症,毛发脏乱,步履蹒跚,孤孤单单,有一双大大的熊猫眼,这是一只动物园里熊猫,对吃没有兴趣,对拉没有兴趣,对交配没有兴趣。它很久很久以前,可能在雷还没有生出来之前,就从心里生出来了,它非常老,有一亿岁了。
关于这只熊猫的存在,我并没有胡说,这里有个例证:在雷情窦初开时,雷在心里暗恋的,不是什么高大上,而是一个瘦弱的腿有残疾的小男生。她独自坐在操场上,看着另一个没人理的人儿走过,心里充满怜悯和爱意。她渴望着他,其实是一只忧伤的熊猫渴望着另一只忧伤的熊猫。
我们俩曾经感叹,童年是最艰难的时期,那么小,那么无助,现在终于过去了。可是童年的坎坷,(这里并不仅仅指外在境遇,而因不同儿童的敏感度,造成的内心的坎坷)和青少年时的反叛养成了扭曲向内的习性,就是说,这只忧伤的熊猫是越长越大了,心脏有些承受不住,它需要一个出口,它需要,起码,对着一堵白墙说说话,说不出来,撞撞墙也好。
这一说一撞不得了,画了一批释放毒素的向日葵。对其中一幅,我是这样解毒的:
它以昂扬的姿态低下头,
耸立在无地之地,傲慢地
腐败,展示着伤口:既
拒绝生命的贿赂___
那些甜言蜜语下深藏的
勒索,又拒绝死亡的
怀抱___那诱人的
关于彻底了断的谎言。
它是一个人个体意识的
觉醒,要求自由的宣言,是
宇宙所赐的身体(啊,我们从未
要求过)走过炼狱时的孤景:
一个尴尬的,倔强的,
悲剧性的精神起点。
那之后,忧伤的熊猫,只剩下一双熊猫眼,时隐时现。
关于这双熊猫眼,我又知道些什么呢?有时候,它们似乎不见,心底澄明的时候,春天忽然开始了,感觉到所有的事情,精神升起来,成为一种满含生命的照耀;有时候,熊猫眼出现,雷就有一种无缘无故的忧郁和不安,面临着人的深渊、生计的羁绊和在想象中对未知的恐惧。
这是女性特有的情绪,和一个想象力特别丰富的女性的特质。雷摆脱了童年,成为女人。
成为女人就是重返坚实和丰腴的土地,重返人的自然性,消解理性和各种纸面的观念,或者说用整体性裹带已确定的概念,重返作为女性本质的虚无。她用果实来呈现和大地的联系,画的却是丰收的背面,几乎没有光,她是不是隐隐感到,光其实是对光的双重遮,而暗却是对光的真正昭显?
这时的雷是个谜。
有一天,我们去郊游。梨花树下,我看见雷,面向微风,象一块薄冰,慢慢溶化,我无法探究她所陷入的迷思,她的睫毛跳跃着,神情忧郁,她慢慢的溶化为另一块薄冰。
她是怎样做到的?
从一个偶然的线条生长起来,气弱游丝,盘根错节,却是一根最老的线条,带着原初的生命气息,长到今天,有一种感应,或者一个小小的启示:人心,是不死的。
要死,也死不干净。
你看,这是她的桌子,这是她的肉肉植物,这是她的猫,这是她的手机,这是她的胡豆,这是她的鱼缸,这是她的天地。这些日常之物,表面之物,象地底深处的一个巨大的怪兽用于窥探我们的眼睛,在某一个时刻,和我们心中的熊猫眼交汇,从而产生新鲜的,不可名状的东西。
雷抓住了这种朦胧的感觉,雷作为雷,当然也有雷厉风行的一面,在时间的断裂中,声音的隐匿中,果敢的跳入一个无限延展的空间,那个空间,我称之为四维空间,它是一个独立的宇宙,在那个宇宙,她看啊游啊捞啊,那个宇宙,就是在你们面前瞪视着你们的一个个画面。
我喜欢雷,也喜欢雷的画,喜欢就是喜欢,没有别的好说,当你需要理由的时候,你已经身心分裂,不成样子。我想说,人要有个人的样子,雷要有个雷的样子,画要有个画的样子,以此类推,直到那个永远的样子。
来,让我们握个手吧,我和你,我们,我们多久没握过手了,借雷的画,我们活着,快快乐乐,看画,写诗,相爱,直到永远。
后记:
为雷未画出的而作
灰烬!
呈现枝叶傲立的姿态
如果被点燃
黑果肉
黑果皮
从另一个星球
穿过大气
尖啸陨落
闷燃、烧焦!
把一个巨人的指头
植入大地
在瞪着的黑背景中
猫儿轻巧跑过
踏雪一样
踏破虹膜
汁液
从背后涌出
孑然独行的
一件火山灰大衣
是爱者的背影
Living In Peril
[Author|Er Mei Hua Translation|Elad Sobol]
Because of loneliness ---- A new lease on life! Blooming, bearing fruit, perfectly round and juicy, but, always shrouded in shadow, that darkness is the hottest temperature in the core of Earth, projected upon the canvas: psychedelic, fervent, it’s a vast metaphor in the depths of the heart!
Once upon a time, there was a woman named “Lei” (Thunder). This name doesn’t sound like a woman’s, in fact, it sounds a bit rough, loud, carefree. But this name is the name she really wanted. She really wanted rain in the field, grain, melons, fruit, vegetables, flowers, birds, fish, worms, after much much much much rain. They grew madly and became very abundant.
Before the rain, there should be “Lei.”There must be “Lei.” There can’t not be “Lei.”Then the rain can rain so hard and penetrate the earth. “Lei,” thunder rolling from faraway frozen winters. At the beginning, there were two elephants hugging each other, and rolling, growing bigger and bigger, louder and louder, coming closer and closer. Finally, one million hugging elephants gathered together and shouted in unison: Ah, ah, ah! Ho, ho, ho! Then they rolled into Spring. BANG! They exploded above our heads and startled us.
One day, Lei said she still would give up everything for painting, which she loved the most. That scared me, just like when I said I wanted to become a great poet, which in turn scared her. We were scared by the voice of the thunder in our hearts. Then, we could say we really knew each other.
Here, I don’t want to talk about Lei’s paintings. You have your own eyes and your special soul. I believe if you look with your heart, without even a minute having gone by, you will have a direct answer: whether you like it or not. So I ask that you look at them with your heart.
Here, I want to say why Lei started painting: because a big panda bear lives in her heart.
Look:
This panda is obese, its fur is dirty and messy, walking like a drunkard, lonely, has big panda-bear eyes, this is the panda who lives in the zoo. It’s not interested in eating, not interested in shitting, not interested in sex. It was born from pain, a long long long long time ago, before even “Lei” was born. It’s one hundred million years old.
About the existence of this panda, I’m not lying. Here’s an example: When Lei was in the age of puppy love, Lei’s unrequited lover was not someone who was tall, strong, or high-class. Rather, he was a slim, short, crippled boy. She sat in the playground alone and looked at another outcast walking by. Her heart was full of compassion and love. She lusted for him. In fact, this was a sad panda lusting for another sad panda.
We were sighing passionately, the childhood is the hardest period, we were so small, so helpless. Now finally it passed, but the trauma of childhood (not only did trauma appear, but because of the different sensitivities of children, these are traumas that stay deep in the heart) and adolescence become part of the character of the twisted and introverted. That means this sad panda grew bigger and bigger. Her heart couldn’t stand it anymore. It needed a way out. It needed at least to talk to a blank wall. If it couldn’t speak out, at least it could bang its head against the wall.
After it banged its head against the wall, it became desperately serious. She painted a series of paintings called “Sunflowers,”which released the poison. This is my understanding of the sunflowers.
It nods its head with a high-spirited gesture
towering aloft no man’s land, arrogantly
corrupt, shows its wound: refuses
life’s bribery ___
deceit hiding beneath those sweet words
and refuses the embrace
of Death ____ those tempting
lies about a clean break.
it is one man’s awakening of individual
consciousness, the declaration of the necessity of
freedom, it is
the body granted by the universe (ah, we never
asked) walking through purgatory’s solitary scene:
an embarrassing, stubborn,
melodramatic spiritual point of departure.
After that, this sad panda only had panda-bear eyes left, which sometimes appear, and sometimes don’t.
About these panda-bear eyes, what do I know? Sometimes, they seem to disappear. Her heart is very clean, the Spring suddenly begins, she feels everything, her spirit rises up and blazes with vitality. Sometimes, the panda-bear eyes appear. They become depressed, insecure without reason. She’s facing the deep void of humanity, the fetters of life, and fear of the unknown.
This is the particular mood of women, and this is the specialty of a woman who has abundant imagination. “Lei” sloughed off childhood and became a woman.
To become a woman means to go back to the stability and plenty of the earth, to go back to our primordial human nature, to dispel rationality, and all sorts of literary concepts, or we can say to become a woman is to use the universe to encompass every defined concept, to return to the essence of woman-ness – vanity. She uses fruit to express the connection of earth, but what she paints is the antithesis of the harvest. Mostly dark, does she feel, ever so slightly, that the night is the double cover of the light, that only the darkness can reveal the light?
This Lei at present is a secret.
One day, we went out for a picnic under the pear-blossom tree. I saw Lei facing the breeze, like a piece of thin ice, slowly melting. I couldn’t probe the thoughts she was lost in. Her eyelashes were trembling, she looked sad, she slowly melted into another piece of thin ice.
How could she do that?
A random line rising up, light as air, like roots growing together, but this is also a very ancient line with the breath of the beginning of life, growing into the present. There is a sense, a small enlightenment: the heart of the human being is not dead.
If it’s dead, it can’t die completely.
Look, this is her table, these are her succulents, this is her cat, this is her iPhone, these are her lima beans, this is her fish tank, this is her world. These everyday things appear innocuous, like the eyes of a giant monster living deep in the ground, watching us. In certain moments, catching the panda-bear eyes in our hearts, thus producing new unnamed things.
Lei caught these dim feelings, Lei as “Lei,”has a lightning-quick decisive side. During a breakage in time, at the height of the voice, she boldly jumped into the infinity of space, that space I call 4 dimensions. It is an independent universe. In that universe, she looked and swam and plunged her hands in. That universe is the pictures in front of you, staring at you right now.
I like Lei, I also like Lei’s painting. To like means to like, there’s no need for a reason. If you need to say why, your heart and soul depart, you are not in the right state. I want to say, humans need to be in a human state, Lei needs to be in a Lei state, painting needs to be in a painting state, and so on, until the eternity state.
Come on, let’s shake hands, me and you, we, how long haven’t we shaken hands? By looking at Lei’s paintings, we are living happily, appreciating art, writing poems, loving each other forever.
Prologue:
For Lei’s unpainted paintings
Ashes!
emerge branches and leaves posing arrogantly
if it’s lit
black flesh
black peels
from another planet
through the aerosphere
screaming howling falling
fetid, scorching!
plunging a giant finger
into Earth
in the glaring black background
a cat runs lightly and elegantly
like a step breaking the snow
breaking the irises
juice
gushes out from behind
walking forlornly
a cinder coat
is the lover’s backside
雷Lei
雷Lei简介:
雷,出生于1972年6月,毕业于四川美术学院附中、西南师范大学美术学院,现为重庆南方翻译学院艺术系副教授。
雷Lei部分展出作品:
危生素NO.1 布面油画 85×115
危生素NO.3布面油画 85×115
危生素NO.5 布面油画 85×115
危生素NO.6 布面油画 85×115
危生素NO.9 布面油画 85×115
危生素NO.13 布面油画 50×85
展览要点:
展览名称:危生素——雷Lei个人画展
开幕时间:2014年06月20日(周五)21:30
展览时间:2014·06·20——2014·07·20
展览地址:成都像素艺术空间(成都市天府大道中段1388号美年广场B座417)
策展人:唐飚、二梅花统筹:冯钺
艺术家:雷Lei
主办单位:像素艺术空间、四川风标文化艺术有限公司
媒体支持:六九艺术网、库艺术、公司地产商、99艺术网、美学杂志、上层、四川美术网、艺术现场、投资客、成都文物网
CURATOR:Tang Biao Er Meihua
PROJECT MANAGER:Feng Yue
ARTIST:Lei
Time:From 20th June., 2014 to 20th July. , 2014
Opening Party: 21:30 p.m.(Fri.)20thJune., 2014
ORGANIZER:Pixel Art Space ICON culture and art co., LTD.